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Hey guys,

Sorry for being 'Missing In Action' for the moment. Shit happens, truckloads of it. Well won't blame God for it though, it'll make me stronger i guess. Well i can say that, it makes me more ignorant and heartless. I just can't be bother about the things that happen around me, ill just have to put a fake smile and just walk away. I know, it really doesnt sound like me right? Well, thats how the world treat me. Been keeping stuff to myself, don't worry, im still smiling =) Just that I don't really get amused that easily like last time. 

Relationship wise, well, me and Reed are officially over, so don't ask us about it anymore, well he need time to move on, me too. So i appreciate it if you 'try' not to ask us about our relationship. We have our own reasons. IF we're meant to be together then maybe in the future we will be together. You Hope, I'll just expect the unexpected =) haha! ok thats my Da Vinci Code. Im so used with people i love, left me. It does hurt, but i won't show them that Im WEAK! Im gonna be like them, see if u feel what i feel. 

Reed once told me that i never told the guys the best of Reed, Well now im gonna tell you guys. Of all of my ex(s) He's the best, I felt loved eventho he sucks at showing his love to me. Yes i do see all those little things he does for me, eventho he's hopelessly romantic,but by seeing all of those little things, well he's trying his best to be romantic. For that i appreciate and proud of him for doing his best to make me felt loved.FYI He's the first guy who gave me a Rose, believe it or not, before him, i never gt a rose from anyone at all. He always sing for me,trying his very best to make time for me, never neglect me when we're out with his friends, share things with me, eventho i don't know a thing about what he's trying to tell me, but sooner or later i learn alot from him, from bike parts to music. I know he's being a geeky science dude sometime, well i love science btw, sadly i didnt took science for Sec 3, AH! regrets! ok back to him, from there too i catch up with my science stuff! Its very interesting you know, i love listening to his stories and bitching and from there ill try my best to be there for him, listen to him, guide him =) not only me. He too guide me with my life, on how to be strong and firm to people who try to take advantage of me. He's the most caring person ever, especially bout my health! oh God, He's used to be my doctor and my lifesaver! haha! He's a good person, just that.. well.. i don't wish to tell you people his bad traits as i don't wanna give him a bad name or whatsoever. I just hope one day he'll realized it and change his bad traits NATURALLY.LOL. If not then i guess his future wife either need to accept him for who he is or try to guide him like how i did for these past years then. =) I wish you luck with your life Reed. Don't worry your problems will go away soon okay. Just be strong, hey, you are strong right =) I always have faith in you no matter how bad our shit is. As i said, I'm proud of you for being strong and stay in e relationship for the past 2 years 3 months, long right?! i know! Can't believe i cant tahan your nonsense and you can tahan my Da Vinci Code! AHAHAH! Thank you for everything. I appreciate it OPTIMUS PRIME LOADS! I love you my friend. 

Well i think i better go off now.. meeting Reed tomorrow, can't deny that i miss him, haha, i know its only been what? two weeks?  Hope you people understand me if i were to keep myself shut sometimes. Sunshine will be back soon, hehe.. sorry if its been raining for the past few days.. XD 

Love,

Ferra